To be an artist and to transform my life, I always have to go my own way, at every moment and through every step of the way. All other ways are astray.
All that I love and that I feel in my life is all that I want and that I need. For I am an artist, and I have the tools to change myself, but I must do it in my own way and in my own time. Knowing that time doesn’t exist. To become the master of my own process, using my own toolbox to guide me towards my inner liberation. That’s all I need to know. To always go my own way, reaching upwards beyond time, in the endless intuitive moment of here and now, to transform myself. That is the symbol of the cross.
Choosing to live the artists life
When I was young growing up in foreign country away from my native country of Norway, I was a very frightened and over-emotional, sensitive kid. I skipped school a lot, faked being sick, to the frustration and fury of my family, knowing I was faking it. I had a mission, to enjoy life, being in the company of myself in the woods, with my art in a world of ideas. The only world I really understood. All for the sake of catching creativity, making music and living the art life. Something I always wanted to do and that was somehow embedded in me from a young age. I had to be in this world which made sense to me, exploring my own world of ideas to understand the world around me.
When I was older, my family was still telling me that I couldn’t be free even when I was a grown-up. But for me to live as an artist, and to be free was the only way to live, to create and complete my life’s work. For most of my youth, I had struggled with anxiety and depressions which kept me on the outside of society, Then when I finally received a severe concussion, I learned that its metaphysical causation was: ‘transform or die’. This forced me to take a radical stand within myself.
Since I had the knowledge and the practice of being an artist from a young age, dealing with the absurdity of the world of ideas and emotions. I found my way through a maze that always kept on changing.
With tools from creative group therapy and alternative medicine, I had assembled many techniques to figure out how to get out of my own darkness, then on my own pathway with guided signs from the divine, I moved into the joy of living my own life. I started seeing the whole world as my own church, walking out, with intuition, self-love, loving it all, getting the courage to deal with being judged by my surroundings. Leaving my own childhood games behind, creating myself in my own vision, I started being a responsible grown-up artist, taking the creative forces around me very seriously, as a tool for inner transformation, in the love, to the love, for inner change, doing
my part for my own and the new world. Giving birth to my new creative inner child, living the art-way the way I wanted to, and always remembering to be free.
On my way I found all the things I needed, the secrets in life, to transform.
To start making the Transform album, I had to be true to the spirit of the new me, and as a way forward I had to let go of my past negative ways. Focusing on the light side if life. Having gained enough life experience through my inner work, I could now deal with the topics of love, relationships, life and death, self-destructiveness, spirituality, and in the end understand how to: Transform.
And to share this work with the world:
How to be a Transformer.